Why do people like to hurt me? Because of them I tried killing my self 4 times ... 5 times tonight ....
You. Right now. Asdfghjklasdfghjkl no. Not happening. Nope I will not let it. Most effective go and look at the “so you want to die” link. Read through there. And the fact that here you are talking to me means that you don’t really want to die. But in reality you just want to be saved. Don’t do anything tonight. Come and talk to me off anon. We can chat. I will save you. Please give me that chance. I may not know WHO you are… But you are a living person. No one deserves pain…. Past or presant. Please just continue living. One more day.. That’s all I ask of you. The fact that you have tried 4 times before and all were unsuccessfull means that you were meant to continue living. Tell everyone who hurt you to fuck off because you don’t need them. Continue living a fun filled fantastic life and prove all those jerks wrong. Show then that they never broke you. No matter how much they may have. Now it’s about 11 at night.. I’m sick and am wanting to sleep. But I’m not going to because I want you to live. Your life is so much more important. I care. I care so much it can not be calculated. I want this to be so much longer because I just have so much to say… But most can just be summed up by; don’t do it. You are better then that. There are so many other ways out. Suicide is just one. Try hope. Take… Me as example. Maybe even my friend Rose. I’m about a month clean… I thought a month ago that all hope was lost and the only way out was death. My friend… Rose. She’s recovering similar things to me. She’s been in recovery a lot longer though. She has slipped and fell back but she climbed back up. There are about… Way to many to count on my figures and toes, of people who have told me they are survivors. They made it out. Darling things get better! Maybe not now or tomorrow.. But real soon because you deserve it. I ask for one more day from you. One day for me to show you how much better things can be.. To Save you.. For me to be able to show you hope in this hellhole of life. Please let me. I won’t leave. I won’t ever leave is you never want me to. You can push and push but I promise right now to stay. Give me that chance to save you.
This is going to ruin that whole thing but I’m sorry about typeos and shit… I’m on my IPod so….
Just please stay safe. Rember what I said. I will be here when you come strolling by. I hope you don’t do anything tonight. Not yet at least not till I had my shot to save you.
